Break threw
Tears
Sting
They touch
They bite
They beat
They seem to
Swallow my
Breath…
They are there always
Awaiting
Waiting
I am so hurt
At your dying
At your breathless
Body laying
On the bathroom floor
God I knew one day
That would happen…
How often had I found you that
Way, 20 or 30 times
Several times a month (but each
Sting
They touch
They bite
They beat
They seem to
Swallow my
Breath…
They are there always
Awaiting
Waiting
I am so hurt
At your dying
At your breathless
Body laying
On the bathroom floor
God I knew one day
That would happen…
How often had I found you that
Way, 20 or 30 times
Several times a month (but each
Off to doctors, no answers, just lots of visits)
Time I would call your name and
You would pop up like
A small toy, with long red hair
Falling over the side of one of those
Boxes…
I would say, Stacey why don’t you
Call me, let me call an ambulance..
Why don’t you let me know you need help
And you would smile and say, I have you,
You always find me, and take care of me
You always put me to bed, take out
My contacts, brush my teeth or hair
Hold you hands as they curled up
In small child like balls
I knew one day, If I were blessed with finding
Your precious body, you hand would be that
Way and they were…
You had the face of an angel that morning
You were sleeping,
Eternally
But sleeping soundly
Enough
Not to come back
Not to raise your head
Open your eyes, did you still
Have your blue contacts in
Where did you wedding band go
Does your horrible family have that
They are as you said, they want to take
Everything
They are as crazy as you said, and so is
V, you were right, they are the same
The whole bunch of them…
Only they didn’t get to see your
Being
Slipping away
They were so use to abusing you
They like all abusers think
They have an endless time to
Pursue the blatant insanity…
I saw you, thank you for trusting
Your being with me so I can say, how
Much I loved you…
For that last time..
Thank you…
I still see us dancing in Starbucks
To Leonard Cohen…
And you telling everyone so proudly how
He sang this at our wedding, and you turned
Me around then swallowed me
Up in your arms again, your eye
Looking deeply into mine..
Our intimacy blazing..
Lovely thought maybe I can go to bed now..
And rest in your amber of peace…
Adoration
And brilliance you gave…
c Dharma Barbara Rose G
Time I would call your name and
You would pop up like
A small toy, with long red hair
Falling over the side of one of those
Boxes…
I would say, Stacey why don’t you
Call me, let me call an ambulance..
Why don’t you let me know you need help
And you would smile and say, I have you,
You always find me, and take care of me
You always put me to bed, take out
My contacts, brush my teeth or hair
Hold you hands as they curled up
In small child like balls
I knew one day, If I were blessed with finding
Your precious body, you hand would be that
Way and they were…
You had the face of an angel that morning
You were sleeping,
Eternally
But sleeping soundly
Enough
Not to come back
Not to raise your head
Open your eyes, did you still
Have your blue contacts in
Where did you wedding band go
Does your horrible family have that
They are as you said, they want to take
Everything
They are as crazy as you said, and so is
V, you were right, they are the same
The whole bunch of them…
Only they didn’t get to see your
Being
Slipping away
They were so use to abusing you
They like all abusers think
They have an endless time to
Pursue the blatant insanity…
I saw you, thank you for trusting
Your being with me so I can say, how
Much I loved you…
For that last time..
Thank you…
I still see us dancing in Starbucks
To Leonard Cohen…
And you telling everyone so proudly how
He sang this at our wedding, and you turned
Me around then swallowed me
Up in your arms again, your eye
Looking deeply into mine..
Our intimacy blazing..
Lovely thought maybe I can go to bed now..
And rest in your amber of peace…
Adoration
And brilliance you gave…
c Dharma Barbara Rose G
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