The USA has become a nation of media freaks causing one problem after another. Although I totally believe in freedom of speech I do not believe in being a liar and being able to use a platform for lies.

That are not only spoken but now are on television and these people get paid an enormous salary for causing havoc and ciaos.

Nancy Grace, is making over a million dollars for her job to be a media in yearly for the slaughtering she does. However it does remind me of what hired killers must do. They are given a job and that is it, money handed over and then someone dies. There is some seriously wrong with someone who needs to be mean and right, causing a public disturbance over and over again. And the stations here pay this media freak to do this.

Joy Behar, gone from and light hearted much loved to media freak attacking everyone and making up stories on air, following it with, just sayin, it could be possible. Not because you said so or want to say so.

Dr. Drew Pinsky has lost all of the ethics as practioner and is now another media freak, exposing any thing he wants or needs to for ratings and then due to his background is obliged to be clearly honest without the negative impute of name calling. And his escape line is, help me here, I am just overwhelmed and so … blah blah blah. .

I named three at this moment in time and as I watch them navigate the so called public (god help us we are not all without brain function) that can think differently its obnoxious, painful and a horrific eye view of what someone who does his work should be doing.

Yes I can turn off the channel, or delete them … however they are still a symptom of our counties fallen abusive ways. They are edicts making and raping the consensus of man kind. They are calling whoever they want guilty getting directly in the way of the law and how it works to make clarity. They are full of hate and hatred.

They are like the death of the human being concept which we were grown to live with and under. They are now the factionary of what hell must be like in your face. They represent a militia of human kind like the KKK or others paid militia to go in and find, capture, kill. Yes they are the killers, in this case hired by television stations. With television shows and are seemly everywhere. With their opinions are not worth the post but the hysteria they cause the climate of the times they are a part of is worth this blog.

This is memory of those who died at the hands of people like this who carried rope in the cars killing at will.

In 2008, and young woman who Nancy Grace went after killed her self, what Ms. Grace charged with murder, no. However she was sued and the parents won, but their child is gone.

I understand this insanity began after her boyfriend died, that doesn’t mean what she does is ethical on any level. It gave her permission to be a horrible angry, raging, human being.

It seem becoming TV host these days can only make your ego explode leaving you acting as if you had no brain, no feelings, god like, I do believe we have many medical terminology for this behavior.

Pondering thoughts and rambling moments..

Appropriate
Thought
For Easter

When you watch
So many people sick
Then die, you
Fall into the abyss
Of death…

Each thought is about their
Sickness and death,
Is like that sound one never
Wants to hear, that rattle of breath…
Leaving for the last time…
Their moment
Could there have been anyway
Else to make their lives easier,
Did you do what they needed, do you
Continue.

For what seems an eternity
You relieve the last night on earth
With them..
You see everything they did,
Every move, every word spoken
Every glimmer of hope
Every second
More then every second
And it goes on and on and on..

You find there are no holes, to have been
Filled with something else..

You see the doctors face, as he signals you
Its over…
You see the unknowns that night that you didn’t see
Before…
You see the way their skin looked,
In its radiance that is what its like before the
Their… special look of death…

You see their peace of body being
As it is before, its lifted into the hearse
You… see, and relive every second
Again and again and more than again…

But today I woke without looking for them..
I saw the light of what rebirth might mean..
It may mean since their spirit is really
Gone on, I do not have to relive their death…

I hope this is what it means…

I hope they are all gone onto their
Next becoming…

It’s a bit late unless your looking at death and how that affects all and I have done that since my partner passed away.

At times I think how morbid and other times I think that is apart of why we got together I was taught what I was afraid of the most, dying.

The unknown the restless anxious moments of falling asleep, seeing images of death as they spew themselves before my closed eyes, I am trying to rest god damn it …leave me alone.

I have learned its universal, all cling to living they avert their eyes to their own truth of feeling without their human form. I can allude to death better than anyone I know.

I can chant it into another sphere to find solitude and instead find this constant and haunting truth. One that can not be change.




Shutter at times
As if the cold breeze
Where stalking my body
Shiver
As if the windows were open..
Silenced for when I speak of this
My family seems to collapse so I am in
Silence as am I

Pay for my funeral ahead of time.
How does one do that and does it mean
You are totally able to take life in its
Stride or that you are at the door of the un-know?

Seemly enough I am not there.

Maybe I will never be and I am guessing its okay. The good news is I blame no one, for having a miserable earth experience, I have the feeling of being blessed and bounty even when at my most meager selves.

Its been a long time since I wrote I hope its read.

The newest of stats in here .. read all about it..

Ok, there are things that one can live with and things one can’t and this is one of the cants elder abuse. Today someone told me they were in a meeting and newest stats were out, not kids, but elders mostly by family members and then others in society.

What and where have the human race go as a whole.

I am sorry I ever said to my child, no that’s okay, or don’t bother
I don’t need help. Or it’s okay that you didn’t come with or send a card for my birthday, or holiday, or sickness. I am so sorry I gave anyone the wrong message by acting as if I were superwoman.

Because in fact we all need each other, mothers, need their kids and kids need their moms/dads, grandchildren need impute of their grandparents. Today the bottom of society exposed itself in America and Americans as the lost generation and it doesn’t stand tall.

In the United States of America, I have witnessed horrendous wrongs and always said when it reaches the elders all will come the last. Traditions are gone and people are not slaves to there own contempt.

I think about kids and parents, hate, disdain, why didn’t I feel that? I certainly wasn’t treated the way I know you should treat a child, at times I wasn’t liked or loved and I was my sickest I was not able to stay at a family home.

I didn’t spend much time with them for many years and asked why didn’t you take care of me, and was told “I don’t know, I felt I didn’t like you and I am terribly sorry for that you should have never known what its like to not have a home.”

Forgiveness didn’t come over night but it came and I had the opportunity to take care of my family with honor and respect and love. We shared what we could without regret.

I would never hurt them, or abuse them or treat them as if they weren’t valued, they were my parents. Nursing home came into existence because of two reasons, it was a business and they got the support of the world that forgot they had a family.

Becoming famililess (new word) wasn’t easy it took many generations and lots of money and no mistakes. The more the family divided the heavier it fell and the more it shattered into and under a new sort of insanity.

Where will it go from here?